Hello there! How is it with you? Me, I’m great! Well, it’s a Monday morning so I’m trying to be as enthusiastic as possible. Generally sef, I’m trying to be a more positive and optimistic person but honestly, I’m good.
So I haven’t written anything in a long time so today I want to do a sort of tell all, where I tell you all. So anywhere it’s been I think about a week or more since I wrote and I must say I have had quite the journey with all sorts of highs and lows so let me start with the lows so we can have a happy ending 🤗.
Alright so, if you read the previous posts I was really going through some down time in my thoughts because I kept feeling like I wasn’t doing enough for my friends, for God, for the people that needed me to do things. I felt so sad and doubtful and it was eventually morphing into this intense self-loathing. I was at the bottom of the road and really just questioning God on what he had said
But then do you know what happened, I was in a prayer meeting and though I had made up my mind to just pray and not to waste time there, I was just so frustrated and tired, I was tired of struggling with God about who was right so I just gave it up and said I was sorry, and I accepted some things I had been struggling with, issues of trust and such and that was when help started to materialise.
That same day, I felt God leading me to another prayer meeting which I was not particularly interested in going into because I really felt physically tired and honestly I was still ‘arguing with him’ a bit in my heart. I still found it difficult to believe some of the things He had said and so I just went, not knowing what to expect.
While everyone was praying for this particular issue, God spoke to me and told me to stop, saying I needed to be okay to pray with them, and that I should ‘get well’ first, so I stopped the general prayer and I started to pray for myself about how I was feeling and then God opened my understanding to the fact that my heart was being attacked by the devil and these thoughts were not mine but the devil’s way of deceiving me and trying to steal from me. That said, I started to pray for my heart and take my heart back from the devil so I just directed the general issues of prayer to myself and before you know it I was WELL and I was able to effectively join them in prayers. Since then I don’t believe such thoughts have found root in my heart, glory to Jesus!
There’s still a lot of ‘Spiritual stuff’ I could tell you about but let’s just say that’s enough for today 😅 the important thing is victory over the devil. If you’re a child of God , you should never settle for less.
So in other news, I got a new pair of glasses! So long story short, my old one got broken and even though I got it fixed, I decided it was finally time to get a new one. So I wanted it to be something new, fun, like an entirely different vibe than I’m used to and that’s how I ended up with red glasses oh… Lol but let me show you
I no fit lie give you, it’s rather bigger than I’m used to and sometimes I’m completely sure it suits me but I’ve decided ugly or pretty, it’s my glasses and I like it 😌🤓.
But one of the reasons I like it is how clear it is. I mean it’s like HD vision. Well the optician I went to actually said my old glasses was not very effective and I needed to get a higher prescription. Honestly, I was scared I argued and argued. I was like baba please don’t spoil my eye finish but he seemed pretty sure of himself so I took the dive oh and I must say, I’m still scared that my eyes may get too weak and reliant on my glasses but honestly, I have never seen the world quite like this. Everything I see is beautiful. The trees are so beautiful, people’s faces are so beautiful. I was looking at someone from afar yesterday and I was like I never knew he was this good looking, it’s almost like I never really saw his face. The day I got the glasses, I wrote in my planner: I don’t ever want to get used to this. I don’t want this to be become ordinary. This miracle, this beautiful miracle.
Moving on I have been astoundingly busy. I don’t even understand myself again I just have different things to do from different sides on one side it can get extremely exhausting. To the extent that I just even just accepted my fate and just got used to being tired all the time but it’s good to know I’m not alone, God is with me, I have people around me who are a blessing I mean just look at this lovely message someone sent me when I told them about how tired I felt :
Yeah, yeah so I’m still busy I haven’t even been on any social media outside WhatsApp and I sincerely don’t even notice… Like no time. 😂 Even the WhatsApp sef I just dey air people left and right (leaving messages unanswered) I pray they forgive me sha but usually if it’s not urgent, I procrastinate a reply and then completely forget 🤦🏾♀️.
But have no fear, this week I’m correcting my evil ways, and I’m going to try as much as possible to call people and reach out to them, one way or the other .
So in respect to this daily blogging thing, make I no lie give you, it’s not my thing like it’s not very convenient. I wanted to do it to release my thoughts and improve my writing but right now I sincerely have such pressing issues to deal with that I don’t even have time for thoughts. It’s okay though, maybe when I can, I’ll just do a long episode like this one.
So that’s it for today, this has been so much fun. Kindly forgive the many typos I am sure lie herein.
Have a good one cherí, see you around❤️